Hello!
I wish I could say that today's 3-miler was all fun and pleasantness because it should have been; there were plenty of people out on the greenbelt and the weather was really nice. Unfortunately that was not the case. Here's how it went.
WORKOUT
easy 3 miles
TIME/DISTANCE/COURSE/PACE
I don't know exactly what my pace was. It was slow, though, and I ran on the greenbelt though for all 3 miles.
WEATHER
Beautiful
FEELINGS & EFFORT LEVEL (1-10, 10=all out):
Feelings are where it's at right now. I feel exhausted, drained, very given to frustration, frustrated tears, and I find myself asking why I'm even doing this.
My stomach was not cooperating during this run and did not take kindly to being jiggled. That was to be expected since it's sensitive anyway.
My calf didn't really hurt at all at the beginning and only hurt a bit during the run. This did not help my overall sense of futility, frustration, and -- to a certain extent -- hopelessness, though
Emotionally, my running lately has felt a lot like it does at the very end of the race, when you're so frustrated with your body, with the amount of distance you have left to cover, you hurt, and you have kind of lost your reason to even keep going.
What's with all this depression? I find I've been on a roller coaster lately, feeling great in the morning and really down by the afternoon. There has been a lot of stress, and my social relationships have been in turmoil lately as well, especially since there have been some adjustments there. Another possibility is this generic Accutane stuff I started taking 6 days ago; Accutane has been known to cause depression, violence, and even suicidal tendencies in some people. I'm not ready to conclude that that is what it is, though. It's only the sixth day.
Effort level? The effort was in continuing despite my stomach, my frustration, my leg, and even this fatigue I'm feeling.
TRAINING PARTNERS
None. I ran alone.
DAYS EVENTS
I've been feeling pretty crummy for the last couple of days. Yesterday I did nothing but lie around all day, which probably helped my leg feel better today. Today I went to church, went out to lunch, and then came home to take a nap. Nothing too stressful.
SLEEP
I rested all day yesterday, got about 9 hours last night, then rested for an hour this afternoon. (It was actually more like hiding under the covers.) I should be rested up. I've also had quite a bit of water today because it makes my stomach feel better.
DIET
Pretty good. Didn't each much at all yesterday because my stomach felt crappy. I was stupid enough to have a doughnut after church today, though, and the fried yickiness of it made me sick. My bad on that one.
RESTING HR
Who knows?
WEIGHT
We've been through this.
NIGGLES
Same old.
Liz
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Hello Liz,
Sorry you had such a miserable run. Without the tough times we wouldn't appreciate the good times. Roll through the challenges of the journey and don't take your eyes off your goals. You've come a long way and there is so much more ahead for you. We love you girl!
Regarding the calf issue. I'm concerned because this seems to have gone on for quite some time, despite rest, decrease in training intensities, etc, so I'm suggesting perhaps having it looked at by your family physician.
Let me know if you would like to discuss your goals again to refocus and reenergize. Although it may just take time.
Also, I've noticed you enjoy writing in narrative format and that is fine to continue if you'd like (As a coach and as you look back at your training, it is important to include that information).
Hang in there, girl... you're not a quitter.
Monica
"Before success in any man's life he is sure to meet with much temporary defeat and, perhaps, some failure. When defeat overtakes a man, the easiest and most logical thing to do is to quit. That is exactly what the majority of men do."
~Napoleon Hill
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